Curing, Fixing, Repairing

how long u’ve lost your self gentleman?
how long u’ve been out of your track gentleman?
how long u haven’t been managing your matters as a gentleman?

every single things that you do, it will have effects sooner or later.. when u decide to choose or commit to something at the same time u’ve to realize and accept the risk or the consequences of every single your decisions.

now you might be at the middle of the journey. the journey which can be titled as no destination journey, coz u actually targeted nothing on this journey.. u probably located as middle of nowhere right now. so why u’ve to be worry? why u have to be so uncontrollable? why all the emotion has controlling u so much? well yeah might be now u having a magic thing which can positioning emotion above ur logically. but I’ve to warn u to look ahead of what u goals actually in these time and in your recent ages. does it really important to your self? why don’t you just go back sit and relax and try to figure out answering the puzzle of what u need and what u want? why don’t u just go back and list ur priority. back to your intrinsic life as others at the same level as you right now. hell yeah I do believe that u are not targeting that thing in your recent ages. why don’t u just let it flow enjoy the happiness you might get from it, and just ignore the shit that might come from it. put not so much emotion on it, coz emotion could kill you so hurt! this is not the right time for u to use emotion so much higher than ur logically, u still have so many things that you have to weary it on your shoulder. ur still nothing in this world gentleman! u just started want to make ur life and ur history, don’t bother it with something that actually u don’t have to put it as ur debits. always remember God never forget you, Family never leave you, and Friends will be there for you. Be Wise and think Twice before u play Gentleman..

I give up coffee and cigarettes
I hate to say it hasn’t helped me yet
I thought my problems would just disappear
And all my pain would be in yesterday
I poured my booze all down the kitchen drain
And watch my bad habits get flushed away
I thought that would keep my head on straight
And all my pain would be in yesterday
I sold my guitar and my piano
I thought that it was these that kept me low
I thought that if I didn’t go and think it twice
I thought if only I could try and change
But it’s true I’m still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit, I must quit of having the way I thought

Coffee and Cigarettes – Michelle Featherstone

Too many shadows in my room
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right
Oh it’s taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart’s advice
I should assume it’s still unsteady
coz actually now I am in repair

Uncle John – In Repair

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home

I May be surrounded by
A million people
I still feel all alone
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
I just wanna go home
I miss you my family.. I miss you God..

M.Buble – Home
Stand up gentleman
A broken heart can’t be that bad
When it’s through, it’s through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on dude come on over
Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Why be alone when we can be together bro?
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

a letter from Brother ‘E’

*In appreciating with a big grateful to u my brother in law!! for coming, talking, sharing and guidance. Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, 17th May 2oo8